The Day-Blind Stars
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
I'm not quite sure how to start this entry off. Harry and S's family were located and were awarded custody as their rightful guardians. They were taken from our home a few days ago. Needless to say, it's been heartbreaking. I've written pages and pages in my journal these past few days but can't seem to find the right words to share here. Sadness, anger, shock, resentment, pain, fear, heartache. It's been a process that I'm working through. I'm trying to get myself back– back to who I was before all of this and trying to restore the sanctity of this home.
We're still healing and I will write when I'm able to better process things. My mom sent me this little prayer that I've been saying to myself “May the Divine Highest Good of All Concerned Unfold.” All I can do for now is send them all of my love, visualize them being safe, and trust that they are where they need to be in this moment.
I've been spending extra time loving the children up, cuddling, playing games, reading stories, singing songs, eating healthy food and doing what I can to help them heal and assure them that they're safe here.
The Peace of Wild Things
When despair grows in me
and I wake in the middle of the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting for their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world and am free
~Wendell Berry~